The Sweetness of Being Destroyed: A Journey from Ego to Divinity
The Leela
In the grand theater of existence, Sai Baba has lit countless lamps to dispel the darkness of ignorance, yet for so long, we have looked at Him through the tinted glasses of our own ego and desires. We have treated the Divine not as a destination, but as a ladder—a mere utility to climb toward petty worldly gains.
Imagine a restless soul wandering from temple to temple, driven by a checklist of demands. During Ganesh Chaturthi, he offers grass to Ganapati; during Shravan, he pours milk on the Shiva Lingam. When wishes remain unfulfilled, he abandons one deity for another, treating devotion like a marketplace transaction. This, the masters say, is Vebhichari Bhakti—promiscuous devotion—akin to wandering from door to door, only to find that sorrow increases with every step.
But Baba invites us to a different path. He beckons us to put on His glasses—the vision of the Sai Satcharitra—and see Him as He truly is. He stands ready with a treasure trove of spiritual wealth, waiting for a devotee brave enough to rob Him completely. The path He offers is not of addition, but of subtraction; it is the alchemical process of the soul where one must be 'destroyed' to truly 'become'. Just as milk must lose its form to become curd, and curd must be churned and destroyed to become butter, and butter must be melted to become ghee, the devotee must undergo the beautiful destruction of the ego to merge into the Supreme Soul.
? The Conflict / Doubt
Why does sorrow often increase even when we actively worship different deities, and why does the fulfillment of worldly desires frequently lead to spiritual stagnation?
The conflict arises when we treat God as a 'Genie' or a means to an end. We struggle to understand why shifting our allegiance between deities based on the season or our needs fails to bring peace, and we fear the 'destruction' of our identity that true surrender demands.
The Revelation
True spirituality is not about acquiring the world through God, but about dissolving the self into God. Baba reveals that the ego must be 'destroyed' to attain the state of Sat-Chit-Ananda (Truth, Consciousness, Bliss).
- The Trap of Wandering: Changing deities based on unfulfilled desires is 'wandering from door to door.' It divides faith and increases sorrow. One must hold onto one door (the Sadguru) with unwavering resolve, regardless of whether desires are met or not.
- Baba as Destination, Not Ladder: We often use Baba as a ladder to reach worldly goals. The path of knowledge requires the opposite: trampling worldly desires underfoot to reach Baba.
- The Definition of True Love: Devotion is not just ritual; it is the act of withdrawing the mind from its attachments (family, wealth, fame) and pouring it into the 'mold' of the Guru's feet.
- The Sweetness of Destruction: To become the Supreme, the individual identity must perish.
"I am eager to be robbed and I am sitting with thousands of eyes in search of one person who will come and rob me completely... True spirituality means to be 'destroyed,' to experience the sweetness of destruction."
"If you understand my will and act accordingly, then one day there will be no difference between me and you; we both will become one, like the river merges into the ocean."
Scriptural References
đź“– Sai Satcharitra Chapter 10 (Verse 126), Sai Satcharitra Chapter 32, References to Saint Dnyaneshwar Maharaj
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Leela Narration
In the grand theater of existence, Sai Baba has lit countless lamps to dispel the darkness of ignorance, yet for so long, we have looked at Him through the tinted glasses of our own ego and desires. W...
